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January 28th, 2008
11:12 pm
new journal, just cause i wanted a new name
hungrybecky
Add me hos.
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January 26th, 2008
11:32 pm
i seem to be bouncing back and forth lately between 1. happyish and stable, but confused about why and 2. really sad and depressed and i have a lot of specific things i'm sad about it, but i still don't know all of the reasons i feel that terrible
right now i'm kind of happy and have been since saturday, i don't know why. i want knowledge, i really enjoy getting into conversations with people and i can listen to sort-of happy music sometimes, dance when i'm forced to and maybe even sing. whereas last week all i wanted to do was cry and didn't feel it was worth it to do homework or stand up or eat.
the happy is also associated with being detached enough to feel okay. and the happiness is event-based.
Current Music: shit
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January 17th, 2008
04:17 pm
Is there a non-email way to get Livejournal to notify me when people reply to my comments? Right now the only thing that shows up is when people reply to my entries.
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December 21st, 2007
08:05 pm
2004. ( here )
Current Music: cotton fields
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April 15th, 2007
January 7th, 2007
09:12 pm
hahahahaha
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=boompse
if you think this is funny let me know
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January 6th, 2007
09:00 pm
Wow... I just started hysterically laughing because I misspelled "assingments" as "assognmrnts." HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
hahahahahaha.
Also Ethan just told me that he thinks that he did bad on his math test because he felt like he was going to have diahhrea, during the test.
Well...
In other news, I got 3rd place in poker 2 times in a row. So that's pretty good.
For some reason I am kind of looking forward to doing that homework that I have over the weekend. What the hell is wrong with me? :p
Current Music: ANGRY SAMOANS
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December 13th, 2006
09:31 pm
I just realized that this has been the worst year of my life.
Current Mood: devastated
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05:36 pm
just kidding i'm not going to use it
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December 12th, 2006
03:48 pm
I will start using this again. yay! but probably just for bitching about stuff. oh well. a lot of that will be private.
i'm listening to bright red by laurie anderson i like this album better than life on a string.
-becky
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September 30th, 2006
09:25 pm
So I just read an article in the Wall Street Journal talking about how Guantanamo Bay detainment camp is such a great place, and they are just going on and on about how they treat the prisoners fine.
What are they thinking?? I've never come across such a blatant lie before in the newspaper. Because that's definitely the place where people, excuse me terrorists are illegally detained without charge and tortured without access to lawyers.
The guy in the article was basically like, "The detainees kill themselves all the time as some kind of "political message"... they're so crazy, what's their problem?"
"Man Vows to Fight Garden Knome Arrest Threat"
Last Saturday after doing stuff, it was evening. In my house, I slowly realized that the gravity of our Earth had gotten stronger! There was much more strain on my muscles pulling me down, because of the increased gravity.
Interesting! I walked out to talk to my mom in the living room. As we talked, I felt very detached as if I was above and also because the increased gravity was affecting my senses. Then I realized: It was not that Earth's gravitational pull had gotten stronger, it was that I had grown! I had nearly doubled in size! I towered over my mom.
Now I know what you're thinking, a 8 to 11 foot person could not fit in the living room, but it was okay because the universe expanded to accomodate me. Nothing spectacular, it was pretty smooth and round actually.
I should also mention that the colors of this whole feeling are red and orange.
It was really fun, this new state. A lot of the strain was put on my shoulders and back because of the way my big arms dangled. It was useless to move them. In the way that a tiny flea can jump 300 times it's height, I could now move less. But it was still fun! I walked around the house in this behemoth body and drank some orange juice, a favorite drink!
(colors change to cool colors)
I went outside in the dark to call Ian about the next day, and sat on the first steps. The effect was less intense out here, and the size started to relax a little bit, like someone breathing out in relief.
The fall air cleared my senses.
It wore off later.
It was weird that the most noticeable part of this change was not the size but the weight.
THIS IS TRUE
Current Location: Bed @ Dad's House
Current Mood: pretty cool
Current Music: Sam Cooke - Chain Gang
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September 28th, 2006
07:35 pm
application for sound rationale( application )
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August 27th, 2006
12:21 pm
so i'm grounded for the first time ever
i went to james' house with aki and some people and i forgot to bring my cellphone with me
and i forgot to call my mom at 11 like i said i would
so my mom had to call aki's mom at 12 and ask for the number
and now i'm grounded for FOUR days, until Thursday,
and After that my curfew starts at 8 o'clock and goes up from there
I have to "regain my trust" or some such crap, even though this is the first time I have ever done anything wrong and i am 16
just for playing dumb card games with the chess club!!!
At least I had a good time, after hanging out with Laura earlier in the day, me and Aki headed over to jamey mulligan's house at 8
Texas hold 'em 10$ to play
It was me, aki, jamey, eric "Huff daddy" hufnagel, jake miller, and for a little bit chantel dixon and her friend who played as a team but then left early. some other people also came and left.
It was very fun, we had a midnight barbecue, aki kept making gay jokes about himself, i was winning for a long time because i learned myself how to play, and everyone was very funny the whole night.
I decided that this is one of my very favorite groups to hang out with, the SC chess club!
There are actually a lot of cool people at my very own school, including but not limited to Aki, Jake Miller, Jamey, Hufnagel, Ethan, Aaron Meliza, WIll Mcconaughy, Gabe, Delusional Label, Freitag, etc., which is basically Chess, Metal, and Punk.
<u>Upcoming Shows</u>
Toxic Shock Syndrome / September 18th / Studio 7
Alice In Chains / November 24th / Moore Theatre
Angry Samoans / November 11th / Hell's Kitchen
OR Angry Samoans / November 12th / El Corazon
The Slits
Anyway, Jake won, after a close battle with eric, who almost came back from having nothing.
At 5, we got a ride home from eric hufnagel, who is leaving for college on Tuesday.
the end
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July 23rd, 2006
10:19 am
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08:47 am - amazing!!!!!!!!
Ok I got back from France
I really like my room, to find that I woke up in my own house
I got back and my brother was at camp
We picked him up Saturday morning and then went to the yurt where we saw the guy that we are renting it out to who was in Wilderness Awareness School
Noah and Aki and I and Aki's girlfriend Danielle played Monopoly, the most degrading game ever
I never have to speak French again
2 really cool things happened on Wednesday
I got tickets to see Alice In Chains
I got a stand-up bass
Current Music: THE BEST
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June 28th, 2006
02:45 am
 Back on July 19th!
Current Music: Mudhoney - If I Think
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June 23rd, 2006
03:04 pm
I joined this group on www.Last.Fm where everyone sends mix CDs to each other.
I was paired with this person who listens to a lot of indie crapola, and not much of anything else. It's like they have never heard of rocking out.
So I gave them some indie that I consider to be good, and a lot of garage rock and blues among other things.
The first track is Ray Charles - Shake A Tail Feather (I made that downloadable if anyone wants it).
ANYWAY, my point is that when I went to color on the CD that I made I intended for it to look something like this:
I really did.
But it came out differently.
Well, at least it looks all right.
Current Music: Crapola
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May 23rd, 2006
05:59 pm - This was too good not to post
1.Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
How are you feeling today?
Moby - Natural Blues
How do your friends see you?
Jimi Hendrix - Have You Ever Been? (to Electric Ladyland)
Will you get married?
Nate Dogg & Warren G - Regulate
What is your best friend's theme song?
The Stooges - Gimme Danger
What is the story of your life?
Grey De Lisle - Walking In A Line
That's really strange that this song popped up, it's an interesting thing to be for this question, I've been planning on making a whole entry about it for a while actually so I might do that.
What was high school like?
Violent Femmes - Add it up
haha funny but not true
How can you get ahead in life?
Anal Cunt - Van Full Of Retards
What is the best thing about your friends?
The Clash - Rudie Can't Fail
What is today going to be like?
Chuck Berry & Bo Diddley - Roadrunner
What is in store for this weekend?
Totoro Theme Song (!!!) :D
What song describes you?
Anal Cunt - Dead, Gay and Dropped
HAHA
To describe your grandparents?
Sublime - Scarlet Begonias (Grateful Dead cover)
How is your life going?
Eminem - Business
What song will they play at your funeral?
Green Day - She
How does the world see you?
Necro - Robbery
Will you have a happy life?
Ass Ponys - Little Bastard
What do your friends really think of you?
Stone Temple Pilots - Crackerman
Do people secretly lust after you?
Fleetwood Mac - Edge Of Seventeen
How can I make myself happy?
The Germs - Lexicon Devil
this one doesn't make that much sense
What should you do with your life?
Koji Kondo - Ultimate Koopa aka the song played in Mario 64 where you beat Koopa.. that is an AWESOME answer
Will you ever have children?
Bob Dylan - Subterranean Homesick Blues
cool
Current Music: rap
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May 17th, 2006
03:01 pm
I just forgot to go to lassie practice again for like the 4th consecutive time, I am going to be in big trouble. I need to find a new way to remember to go to that on Wednesdays after school because all of my old ways of remembering have stopped working. But for some reason this Saturday at 12:00 I am doing the Jig and the Hornpipe (wow hard) at a Country Club.. alone? Everyone else will be in canada so this is what i'm doing. It's strange. Anyway, I died my hair yesterday.
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April 14th, 2006
11:14 pm
Asperger syndrome
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
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commonly referred to as a form of high-functioning autism. In very broad terms, individuals with Asperger's have normal or above average intellectual capacity, and atypical or poorly developed social skills, often with emotional/social development or integration happening later than usual as a result.
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may be hypermotivated to outperform peers in school
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"What most people with Asperger's Syndrome find difficult is casual chatting - they can't do small talk."
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Speech and language peculiarities
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Some are so proficient with written language as to qualify as hyperlexic.
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Hyperlexia is a syndrome in which the main characteristics are an above normal ability to read coupled with a below normal ability to understand spoken language. Despite hyperlexic children's precocious reading ability, they may struggle to communicate. They may have olfactory, tactile, and auditory sensory issues. Their diets may be picky
Hyperlexia often coexists with high functioning autism or Asperger syndrome.
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Those affected by Asperger's may also manifest a range of other sensory, developmental, and physiological anomalies. Some people with Asperger's experience varying degrees of sensory overload and are extremely sensitive to touch, smells, sounds, tastes, and sights. Some are also unable to block out certain repetitive stimuli, such as the constant ticking of a clock. I hate clocks!
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many people with Asperger syndrome recognize that there is a problem and try to adapt to living among people without the syndrome, even if they are unaware of the term "Asperger syndrome" itself or believe it does not apply to them.
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Even later in life, many people with Asperger's report a feeling of being unwillingly detached from the world around them. On the other hand there might be adults who get married get a doctorate from a fine university and hold a job - it just depends on the individual.
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Speech and language peculiarities
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A lack of spontaneous seeking to share enjoyment, interest or achievements with other people (e.g.,boring by a lack of showing, bringing, or pointing out objects of interest to other people).
A lack of social or emotional reciprocity.
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autistics often exhibit signs that the brain hemispheres aren’t communicating properly
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have the ability to focus intensely and for long periods on a difficult problem.
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they may appear somewhat removed or disconnected at times, especially in situations of sensory overload, or perceive extreme social pressure such as during a party.
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most people with Asperger's have difficulty expressing their own emotional state via body language, facial expression, and nuances as most people do. Some such people have emotional responses as strong as, or perhaps stronger than, those of most people, although what generates an emotional response might not always be the same; the difficulty is in expressing these feelings, although it sometimes comes across as lacking them. And some such people do truly lack, or have reduced levels of emotions.
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because it is classified as a spectrum disorder, some people with Asperger syndrome are nearly normal in their ability to read and use facial expressions and other subtle forms of communication. However, this ability does not come naturally to most people with Asperger syndrome. Such people must learn social skills intellectually, delaying social development.
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However, not showing affection (or not doing so in conventional societally-acceptable ways) does not necessarily mean that he or she does not feel it. Understanding this can lead the significant other to feel less rejected and be more understanding. There are usually ways to work around the problems, such as being more explicit about one's needs. For instance, when describing emotions, it can be helpful to be direct and to avoid vague terms such as "upset" when the emotion being described is anger (some individuals with Asperger's would interpret "upset" as mere annoyance, or even nausea).
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